Contamination OCD - Ella loses control at school..

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  • Ella's been making good progress with controlling her OCD. It hasn't been easy being in high school with this illness - but it's just about to get even harder when the most popular girl accidentally gets involved. Thanks for watching our video! In case anyone wants to see the script, it's right here for you: SCRIPT Most people at my school look forward to lunchtime, but it's the scariest time of day for me. Luckily, we manage to avoid the rush. My best friend, Sophie, and I sit at a small table near the edge of the food hall. I watch as more students flood in and start queueing up to get their lunch. Some of them are messing around, pushing each other and laughing. Even Jennifer, the most popular girl in school who actually hates me, is in the queue just giggling and flirting with all the boys. I've started bringing my lunch from home instead. "Ella?" Sophie breaks my train of thought. "I asked you how the maths paper went…" That morning we were given a practice maths test. The pressure is on for our real exams which are taking place in a few months. "Could have been better, I'm so behind." "Ah don't worry! There's still time to catch up. You're doing great being back here!" Sophie tries to reassure me. She's right. I have been doing much better recently, this time last year I couldn't have made it into school at all. I notice Jennifer and her friends sit down at a table close to ours. I shift in my seat. Those girls make me feel so uncomfortable; they just think I'm a weirdo. They start talking loudly about the maths paper and we can't help but overhear. "I should have done well! I was going totally crazy in there, seriously OCD, checking everything." Jennifer's sharp voice rings in my ears, she's laughing. I feel frozen, stuck to my chair. Sophie's concerned eyes meet mine. "It's okay!" I lie, speaking quietly so that only Sophie will hear. "I just need to get out of here for a minute." I hurry out of the hall. All of a sudden everything seems so overwhelming, there are too many people talking and eating. I silently pray that the bathroom is empty. Fortunately, there's no one else around. I stare at myself in the mirror, I'm trembling. I have contamination OCD. Feelings from last year come rushing back; I'm terrified of getting ill. I wring my hands, they must be dirty already. Mentally I start listing everything that I've touched throughout the morning, so many germs. I've probably also touched my hair, clothes, maybe even my face. By now, I'm dirty all over - contaminated. I pull a paper towel from the dispenser, and discard it. Maybe somebody touched that one. I take another, and use it to turn on the tap. I start washing my hands, scrubbing quite hard. I feel sick which only scares me more, even though logically I know that nausea is a daily side effect of my medication. I try to breath. What am I doing? It's so frustrating. This all started when I was around 11 or 12. Nothing traumatic happened; the doctors eventually said that my OCD was triggered by puberty, a chemical imbalance in my brain. At first it wasn't a big deal, people just thought I was odd. I liked things to be a certain way. I started showering before and after school, but I was still functioning fairly normally. Around my 14th birthday it started getting worse. I would spend hours washing myself. My mum caught me about to take bleach into the shower, that’s when we went to the doctor. But I am better now, I'm coping. I don't know why Jennifer's words are throwing me off like this. People say that kind of thing all the time - it's just a silly phrase. I spend a few more moments composing myself and finally turn off the tap. No paper towel. I better go and find Sophie, she's probably worried. I walk out of the bathroom and turn back towards the food hall. Suddenly, someone bumps into me, trying to grab me to avoid falling. Horror courses through me. A girl is touching me, pulling at my clothes. I scream and stumble backwards, recoiling. The girl falls to her knees. I stare open-mouthed, mortified. It's Jennifer. "Oh my god, I'm so sorry" I stammer. But, I'm already retreating back into the bathroom. I start desperately ripping off my jumper. Jennifer follows me, her face threatening. My jumper has fallen to the floor and I'm frantically washing my hands again. Jennifer stares at me as though I've completely lost my mind. Oh god, maybe I have. "What the hell is wrong with you? I'm not diseased or anything you freak." Her voice is hard and cruel. Tears are sliding down my face. I want to explain that I can’t help it; it's like a reflex for me to avoid human contact. But, I can't. "I'm sorry" I sob again.
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  • mental illness ocd teen dramas teen obsessivecompulsivedisorder friendship meangirl highschool 

Yorum Sayısı: 2125

  • Yee It’s Presley
    Yee It’s Presley 3 saat önce

    Is this real

  • AlexLava
    AlexLava 4 saat önce

    Its more gross to wash 2 times a day than having dirty hands, because its bad for your skin and ew

  • Z & Z Productions
    Z & Z Productions 4 saat önce

    Oh a popular girl! Yeah this entire thing sounds fake

  • Angela Brennan
    Angela Brennan 11 saat önce

    My name is ELLA !

  • hot tea
    hot tea 17 saat önce

    this sounds like a movie

  • MDK18
    MDK18 1 gün önce

    Is she holding clorox in the thumbnail?

    Edit: okay that really is bleach

  • HoneyItsAaliyah
    HoneyItsAaliyah 1 gün önce

    I don’t have the ocd that makes me like this girl, I have the ocd that makes me organized, and I need routine or I get horrible anxiety attacks:(

  • Denise_is_trashy
    Denise_is_trashy 1 gün önce

    Im not trying to say that i have ocd but i can relate to some of these things but its not as bad

  • Ismat Ali
    Ismat Ali 1 gün önce

    My teacher has OCD

  • Puppie Cat
    Puppie Cat 2 gün önce

    Btw so everyone with ocd knows that ocd can be cured if you go to a cigoligist, I have been diagnosed with ocd and I’m 10, sorry for misspelling words. It will get better

  • Puppie Cat
    Puppie Cat 2 gün önce

    I have ocd... I’m scared

  • lazymusician10
    lazymusician10 2 gün önce

    Wait, that's it?! I want to know what happens next! Is there a part 2?

  • Ella Lewandowski
    Ella Lewandowski 2 gün önce

    My name is Ella too

  • Herowebcomics
    Herowebcomics 3 gün önce

    You have got to get over that fear!
    Accept that everything is dirty, but can be made cleaner to the point that it's clean enough to not make you sick!

  • jungkook .4lif3
    jungkook .4lif3 3 gün önce

    My name is Sophie.....It's me!

  • Crusader8587
    Crusader8587 3 gün önce


  • i like to eat
    i like to eat 3 gün önce

    I doubt I have OCD but when I read ANY book I always read 1 page like 4 timed in a row

  • Fortnite I’snt Broken

    i’m pretty sure this is just called germaphobia

  • Fortnite I’snt Broken

    i have OCD but thankfully it’s very mild!

  • its roxy love
    its roxy love 3 gün önce


    Ha ha ha maths

  • fairymairah
    fairymairah 3 gün önce

    ! ! ! !

  • Olivia Oprea
    Olivia Oprea 3 gün önce

    Glad that I don't have OCD

  • Cade Giles
    Cade Giles 3 gün önce

    Maths??? But it's math sorry my OCD is verbal everything has to be perfect when you say it to me or if I say it sorry

  • xRoxoLilacxk :3
    xRoxoLilacxk :3 3 gün önce

    I have contamination OCD. It happened because of puberty. It now always apart of me and I just want it to go away

  • Annan Hosssain
    Annan Hosssain 3 gün önce

    you should get homeschooled.

  • Annan Hosssain
    Annan Hosssain 3 gün önce

    my grandmother had OCD

  • Rory 2 Berumen
    Rory 2 Berumen 4 gün önce

    U should like wrap yourself in plastic

  • Gwendalynn Alvarado
    Gwendalynn Alvarado 4 gün önce

    Omg same 😭 this is my life I can’t take it I have to ask everyone at my table to hide all their trash and to put everything in order my disorder is getting worse they all say I’m crazy but they don’t understand the junk mail that piles up in your head the things I have issues with
    Contamination,numbers not in order,repetitive actions,and for some weird reason I can’t touch receipt or look at trash while I eat,and I have to have things organized
    My mom is a nurse and knows I have it I am going to take an OCD test at the doctors and get it treated I had it sense I was little and it is ruining my life

  • Kelsey Larson
    Kelsey Larson 4 gün önce

    Yes MATHS not MATH

  • Mekhia Phillips
    Mekhia Phillips 4 gün önce

    She should carry a-many bottles of hand sanitizer

  • The smartest idiot on earth

    I have a thing, not sure what it is, when there's a song in my head I'll count the beats with my fingers and try to get a perfect pattern of it. I also look at words and names and stuff and see if the number of letters is a multiple of 3. It doesn't bother me and I don't think it's ocd, it could just be a thing I do when I'm bored.

  • Erin Meiklejohn
    Erin Meiklejohn 5 gün önce

    My bestfriend was like “I swear I’ve got like an ocd. Whenever I see food on someone’s face I have to tell them to get it off”. I was like no. No sweetie that’s not ocd.

  • I love xxtentacion Xxtencion

    I have really bad OCD if something touches my right arm I have to touch my left... I am really struggling to get through and I’m trying to get my mum to take me to therapy and I’m going to ask her now... ☹️

    EJZYEBEJZYE 5 gün önce

    Oh no! A bunch of people in the hallway! So sorry for your traumatic experience I hope you didn't get Ebola!

  • Twiz Plays
    Twiz Plays 5 gün önce

    I mean like... I hate it when things aren't organized but I don't have OCD.

  • Adara Relgnel
    Adara Relgnel 5 gün önce

    Ewwwww she keeps touching the sink!! I dont have OCD but that grosses me out

  • Reagan Luker
    Reagan Luker 5 gün önce

    “My ocd always gets to me, I just have to have everything organized”. People don’t realize it is an actual illness.

  • Heather Famularo
    Heather Famularo 5 gün önce

    I have OCD and kids in my school say that they have it too but they just want to be like me.....

  • Nevaeh Blair
    Nevaeh Blair 5 gün önce

    Who else is mad that it didn't end at 6:00 but instead it ended and 5:59

  • just a human
    just a human 6 gün önce

    Sorry but idk what “OCD” is excuses