Contamination OCD - Ella loses control at school..

  • Yayınlanma Tarihi:  11 ay önce
  • Ella's been making good progress with controlling her OCD. It hasn't been easy being in high school with this illness - but it's just about to get even harder when the most popular girl accidentally gets involved. Thanks for watching our video! In case anyone wants to see the script, it's right here for you: SCRIPT Most people at my school look forward to lunchtime, but it's the scariest time of day for me. Luckily, we manage to avoid the rush. My best friend, Sophie, and I sit at a small table near the edge of the food hall. I watch as more students flood in and start queueing up to get their lunch. Some of them are messing around, pushing each other and laughing. Even Jennifer, the most popular girl in school who actually hates me, is in the queue just giggling and flirting with all the boys. I've started bringing my lunch from home instead. "Ella?" Sophie breaks my train of thought. "I asked you how the maths paper went…" That morning we were given a practice maths test. The pressure is on for our real exams which are taking place in a few months. "Could have been better, I'm so behind." "Ah don't worry! There's still time to catch up. You're doing great being back here!" Sophie tries to reassure me. She's right. I have been doing much better recently, this time last year I couldn't have made it into school at all. I notice Jennifer and her friends sit down at a table close to ours. I shift in my seat. Those girls make me feel so uncomfortable; they just think I'm a weirdo. They start talking loudly about the maths paper and we can't help but overhear. "I should have done well! I was going totally crazy in there, seriously OCD, checking everything." Jennifer's sharp voice rings in my ears, she's laughing. I feel frozen, stuck to my chair. Sophie's concerned eyes meet mine. "It's okay!" I lie, speaking quietly so that only Sophie will hear. "I just need to get out of here for a minute." I hurry out of the hall. All of a sudden everything seems so overwhelming, there are too many people talking and eating. I silently pray that the bathroom is empty. Fortunately, there's no one else around. I stare at myself in the mirror, I'm trembling. I have contamination OCD. Feelings from last year come rushing back; I'm terrified of getting ill. I wring my hands, they must be dirty already. Mentally I start listing everything that I've touched throughout the morning, so many germs. I've probably also touched my hair, clothes, maybe even my face. By now, I'm dirty all over - contaminated. I pull a paper towel from the dispenser, and discard it. Maybe somebody touched that one. I take another, and use it to turn on the tap. I start washing my hands, scrubbing quite hard. I feel sick which only scares me more, even though logically I know that nausea is a daily side effect of my medication. I try to breath. What am I doing? It's so frustrating. This all started when I was around 11 or 12. Nothing traumatic happened; the doctors eventually said that my OCD was triggered by puberty, a chemical imbalance in my brain. At first it wasn't a big deal, people just thought I was odd. I liked things to be a certain way. I started showering before and after school, but I was still functioning fairly normally. Around my 14th birthday it started getting worse. I would spend hours washing myself. My mum caught me about to take bleach into the shower, that’s when we went to the doctor. But I am better now, I'm coping. I don't know why Jennifer's words are throwing me off like this. People say that kind of thing all the time - it's just a silly phrase. I spend a few more moments composing myself and finally turn off the tap. No paper towel. I better go and find Sophie, she's probably worried. I walk out of the bathroom and turn back towards the food hall. Suddenly, someone bumps into me, trying to grab me to avoid falling. Horror courses through me. A girl is touching me, pulling at my clothes. I scream and stumble backwards, recoiling. The girl falls to her knees. I stare open-mouthed, mortified. It's Jennifer. "Oh my god, I'm so sorry" I stammer. But, I'm already retreating back into the bathroom. I start desperately ripping off my jumper. Jennifer follows me, her face threatening. My jumper has fallen to the floor and I'm frantically washing my hands again. Jennifer stares at me as though I've completely lost my mind. Oh god, maybe I have. "What the hell is wrong with you? I'm not diseased or anything you freak." Her voice is hard and cruel. Tears are sliding down my face. I want to explain that I can’t help it; it's like a reflex for me to avoid human contact. But, I can't. "I'm sorry" I sob again.
  • Video Süresi: 00:05:59
  • mental illness ocd teen dramas teen obsessivecompulsivedisorder friendship meangirl highschool 

Yorum Sayısı: 2605

  • Ivy Trinh
    Ivy Trinh 1 gün önce

    Okay, I had found I had ocd, I keep repeating something over and over again. And I want to stop, but i cant

  • PaolaR06
    PaolaR06 1 gün önce

    Im a perfectionist, and I don't know if I have OCD but there is something with me more than perfectionism, I'm obsessed, and I'm not like the people that says "if I touch something with one hand I have to do it with another, I'm so OCD" I'm different, I feel strange and mad if something is not as I put it or 'perfect' my mood changes. And I'm not lying, and I know the differences between OCD and perfectionism, I need to get diagnostic, I'm afraid I have OCD, I don't really want it

  • Artist God
    Artist God 1 gün önce

    That ending was unsatisfying

  • Sakura HIshamoto
    Sakura HIshamoto 1 gün önce

    Now I also think I have contamination OCD because I do the exact same thing.
    I can't stand dirt and I have to disinfect the things I use at school when I come home or I can't touch it again when I'm at home.
    I have to disinfect me seat at home because I sat on it with a school dress.
    I constantly feel like all the things outside are dirty and if I touch it I'm going to have to disinfect my hands again.
    My parents also don't like my behaviour and have told me off so many times but I can't help it.

  • Indigo Blue
    Indigo Blue 3 gün önce

    I'm so bored and I haven't even gotten 1 minute in... I apologise

  • caitlin robo1678
    caitlin robo1678 3 gün önce

    I don't have ocd but I have perfectionism which IS COMPLETELY DIFFERENT!

  • Ain Lerato Michele
    Ain Lerato Michele 4 gün önce

    I dislike Jennifer's attitude so much!!!

  • wild cat
    wild cat 4 gün önce

    You can't control OCD. Believe me. The only way to suffer less is to agree with everything that it sends to you, but don't do it, because OCD is a vicious circle and the only way to break it is to stop do what OCD tell you to do and convince yourself that if you skip hand washing after contact with other person it's unlikely that you will get sick. It’s not easy at all, but not impossible. Just never give up. I have OCD for like 8 years and there's a moments when it gets control on me, but I still think that I'm quite happy person and love my life:)

  • Magik Kat
    Magik Kat 5 gün önce

    I would be too anxious to even consider taking off my jumper! How does she do that?!?!

  • na na
    na na 5 gün önce

    It’s been 2 years since I’ve been diagnosed with OCD, I overthink alot, wash my hands quite alot, get intrusive and bad thoughts that i can’t stop.. i get anxious so easily :/ it’s really difficult living with OCD

  • Pinapple Pen
    Pinapple Pen 1 hafta önce

    hola people


    i don’t have ocd but i think i have anxiety but i’m not really sure cool right… no okay, but also i’m crying while writing this also it’s 12:45 am uh what is happening

  • missims100
    missims100 1 hafta önce

    I have ADD and OCD and developmental delayed.

  • NiDino
    NiDino 1 hafta önce

    im not the only one that pulls off the first tissue becuz someone could have touched it -
    thank god

  • Aaliya frhn
    Aaliya frhn 1 hafta önce

    Even i hate school because i feel to take a bath as soon as i enter the dirty classes.

  • Nida Sakina
    Nida Sakina 1 hafta önce

    Please make a video about misophonia. That would be really helpful. Thanks

  • douchbagat
    douchbagat 2 hafta önce

    the fact that we know specific chemicals are the different factors to how we act and make out individual personalities freaks me out

  • Ford Quaintance
    Ford Quaintance 2 hafta önce

    At 3:16 the speech bubble says poop

  • Zoey Neal
    Zoey Neal 2 hafta önce

    I have a mixture of OCD and ADHD but more ADHD than OCD it’s really really bad like if I’m not moving I feel like I can’t breathe I start sweating like CRAZY and I do this thing where I kinda move my foot up and down but it’s really distracting to others because I have a shoe-ring with beads on that shoe and it’s insanely loud my mom also does it so I guess I just take after her

  • -Alexia Vibes-
    -Alexia Vibes- 2 hafta önce

    I actually had diagnosed OCD;-;






    That was 7 years ago btw.

  • Fluffy Puppers
    Fluffy Puppers 2 hafta önce

    Hate is a sin

  • Loan Nguyễn
    Loan Nguyễn 2 hafta önce

    Please show me how to make a video like this

  • Emkata BG
    Emkata BG 2 hafta önce

    You are in fact weirdo..

  • Gabriel García
    Gabriel García 2 hafta önce

    Como el title decía Ella, I thought que el video was in spanglish.

  • ė biebz 301
    ė biebz 301 2 hafta önce

    This is the first type of OCD I heard of.

  • Allora Bell
    Allora Bell 2 hafta önce

    I am autistic but it is not t the samme

  • Sunny Parashar
    Sunny Parashar 2 hafta önce

    And here I am never want to shower and being lazy LOL 😂

  • Crazybeanz10
    Crazybeanz10 2 hafta önce

    Sounds like someone i know very well




    Me.

  • Tweety Bird
    Tweety Bird 2 hafta önce

    My name is Ella...
    I also have OCD

  • Mariam Altalikany
    Mariam Altalikany 2 hafta önce

    It’s made me cry

  • Gacha_ Sofie
    Gacha_ Sofie 3 hafta önce

    In Public Bathrooms I Wouldn't Want To Hold The Handles In The Bathroom Stall And I Wouldn't Hold The Flush I'd Use My Foot To Flush...Is That Considered OCD???

  • Richi Munshi
    Richi Munshi 3 hafta önce

    More about it !!!
    Please it is request - .... .
    My friend having same problem !!!
    So I need to help her ....

  • notnicelittle 666666
    notnicelittle 666666 3 hafta önce

    The "maths" think is fucking annoying it's math. MATH. NOT mathS.

  • LINDSEY GRAFF
    LINDSEY GRAFF 3 hafta önce

    WHY ARE THEY TELLING HER SHE HAS OCD THAT ONLY MAKES IT WORSE, TREAT IT GRADUALLYWITHOUT TELLING THEM THEY HAVE IT!

  • AstronautPug
    AstronautPug 3 hafta önce

    if I'm eating a sandwich at school lunch and a tiny bit of the bread touches the table, the entire sandwich becomes inedible
    I'm not crazy

  • ViaPlayzGamez
    ViaPlayzGamez 3 hafta önce

    That cliffhanger tho..

  • CassieGirlGaming
    CassieGirlGaming 3 hafta önce

    Do you know what my worse fear is? Don't make fun of me. Throwing up.

  • AnneGrace❤
    AnneGrace❤ 3 hafta önce

    ... yes OCD can be such a pain sometimes. But the thing I love about it is it really has gotten me into an organized person. :) I understand if some of you don't agree it's okay! 😊😳💖💖

  • Emma xoxo
    Emma xoxo 3 hafta önce

    I have OCD and it sucks also I am a germaphobe. It is not extreme but I understand a bit what she is going through

  • dawnsiqns
    dawnsiqns 3 hafta önce

    I would have told Jennifer off and slapped her twice

  • Kayley Lohn
    Kayley Lohn 3 hafta önce

    How do u do comics like this