HARDEST VIDEO I EVER FILMED | DESI PERKINS

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  • Lucy Robson
    Lucy Robson 38 dakika önce

    Desi, thank you so much for sharing your story. I cannot even begin to imagine what it feels like to go through all of this. You are so strong ❤️

  • Jeffline Joseph
    Jeffline Joseph 43 dakika önce

    In the name of Jesus, you will bear fruit. Praying for you!

  • Stella Sepassipour
    Stella Sepassipour 47 dakika önce

    You are very strong and you have to stay strong. We support you

  • erika carrillo
    erika carrillo 50 dakika önce

    Thanks for sharing your story . I have a story as well but it’s hard to speak about . I think the best way is IVF, embryos . Surrogate is also a great option. We have so much technology out there . It is very expensive . Don’t let that hold you back . Good luck & God bless

  • Jennszblogs
    Jennszblogs 53 dakika önce

    wow desi, you got me crying like a baby over here, I’m going to pray for you and Steven have that miracle ❤️ it’ll happen soon.
    CHICKENS LETS PRAY!
    prayers always help 🐔💞

  • fashiongirl0584
    fashiongirl0584 58 dakika önce

    Who downvoted this?! This was so brave and heartbreaking. I hope you get to be a mom some day Desi.

  • Chantel Ayoub
    Chantel Ayoub 2 saat önce

    I LOVE YOU DESI STAY STRONG!!!!

  • Beverly Gupit
    Beverly Gupit 2 saat önce

    Girl you made me tear up with this video. I know how you feel. 💕

  • Ismigul Assenov
    Ismigul Assenov 3 saat önce

    After two miscarriages i know how you feel, its def a time of needing all the support you can get especially from your husband or partner... its something you’ll never forget, it really doesnt help when doctors or people say ‘now you know that you can get pregnant!’ Its the worst you can say to a person that went trough something like this... thank you for this video, its so hard to talk about this

  • Clementina1483
    Clementina1483 3 saat önce

    God's moments are perfect, I know it hurts (I've been there too) but don't be sad, your children will come when they have to. You're an amazing woman, don't give up! Tons of Love from Venezuela 😘🇻🇪😘🤗

  • Kelsey Flynn
    Kelsey Flynn 3 saat önce

    God is going to bless you with something great Desi

  • Neha Assar
    Neha Assar 3 saat önce

    Hang in there Desi. I know this is frustrating and difficult but it’s just a phase and it too will pass. Don’t give up. What is meant to be will be and you don’t have control over when things will happen. Focus on being stress free and staying centered. Surround yourself with love and happiness. Live in the moment. Sending love ❤️

  • Rebecca Hamler
    Rebecca Hamler 4 saat önce

    You are not alone 💔

  • Celica Elicea
    Celica Elicea 4 saat önce

    Watching you I felt like I was watching my life story. I had a miscarriage and also gave up. One day I just prayed with a necessity... I asked God for that blessing after 7 yrs he answered.I also started taking prenatals just to be healthier and prepare. Best of luck stay positive and keep having faith.

  • Suzette Rollin
    Suzette Rollin 5 saat önce

    You are amazing ❤

  • Katie Holloway
    Katie Holloway 5 saat önce

    Praying for you!! This made me cry because that is also one of my biggest fear and it could really happen to any of us but please don't give up hope, I think that God has a specific plan just for you and all of us and it's going to be everything you Could ever imagine and I really believe that! Thanks for sharing ❤️❤️❤️❤️

  • Michelle Quah
    Michelle Quah 6 saat önce

    I feel you. One will never ever get over grief. You just cope. I had 2 miscarriages. Keep hope alive. Thanks for being open. It's hard.

  • Sophie Castro
    Sophie Castro 6 saat önce

    Hi desi my name is Sophie I’m from Australia and would just like to send a bubble of hope your way. I can totally relate to your story n feelings as my hubby and I also walked this path, me myself felt so alone like in a box I couldn’t get out of it was a horrible time of my life but also a journey that taught me so much, we had a daughter that we fell pregnant with by accident just before we got married so of course when I was ready for baby number two I thought it would be a piece of cake BUT as she approached two we decided ok let’s give her a sibling we tried n every month that went by my anxiety increased I went for tests to make sure all was ok they said everything is fine you’ve had a baby already we know your body can do it, so away I went tried to relax, holiday go out together get drunk n I was sure it would happen but time went on n still every month my period would come n I’d be a mess but had to pull myself together n go off to work. I had this guilt on top of that, that I should be happy I already had one but my heart broke as she got to kindy n started asking mummy why don’t I have any brothers or sisters? I have no one to play with.... people would ask so you having anymore? N I would hide it n say yes I’d love to, people can be so insensitive I also got “goodness how long you going to wait you don’t want too big of an age gap!” And “oh she’s going to be an only child why would you do that to her?” I could of then said WELL we are trying!!! Thank you very much!! But I would clam up more. Anyway long story short we went down the ivf path eventually as I thought omg I can’t leave my daughter an only child I myself have three sisters n couldn’t help but not want my daughter Tiana to be alone or how will she deal with being the only child when one of us die, I know that’s full on but this stuff goes through your head. Ok so we started the ivf journey my hubbys sperm analysis was fine also so it should happen straight away right? Wrong first transfer didn’t work, ok that’s ok we got like 6 viable embryos so we did another transfer again fail n every time you have to wait two weeks knowing you have a live lilttle being inside just needing to attach and you go for a blood test and they ring and say I’m sorry it’s negative, your Mind tells you what? No well maybe their wrong my period hasn’t come yet I don’t believe it, the fall is so hard I mean omg I was Brocken every time so 4 transfers later here we are not pregnant I have two embryos left n I said I wouldn’t do egg collection again I just couldn’t my mental state wouldn’t be able to take it, I decided to transfer my two remaining embryos to another clinic as I felt the clinic I was at wasn’t trying anything new or different so we went across to this new place and they defrosted my three day embryos to try culture them to 5 days one didn’t make it n the other made it but they were nervous as it was our last one but I said no culture it to five days this is my last absolute last try I’m so done I’m flat out done, so if I’d doesn’t survive then I know straight up, but it did it made it to five days they transferred it and I went home praying with everything I had I made a vision board on pregnancy pics n things to put it out to the universe that I’m giving it my all.... I did a pregnancy test a week later because I told myself if it’s negative it’s probably too early and I’ll then just wait till my blood test fours after that... but i did a test...... waited as soon as the liquid went across the little window straight say two lines Iv never smiled so much I swear it was like omg I can’t believe it!! I was pregnant!!! My pregnancy was smooth sailing I was positive the whole way n my baby girl was born it is still amazing to me, I gave my first daughter a sister to share her life with yes they are almost 7 years apart but looking at it now they are so gorgeous together this is our family. So after 4years!!! Of trying and I mean trying legs up counting cycle days ivf the whole lot n thousands of dollars later we did it! I did it. And I’m so grateful. She was made in 2015 born 2017 haha she’s 9 months old now, Aliyah is her name. Sorry this is a long story I tried to make it short but I wanted and I hope you get the chance to read it.. that it can happen even after so much failed attempts.. so I’m sending you positive vibes and if ever you need or have any questions feel free to ask me a fan that knows exactly the same feelings you are experiencing. You will get your dream Desi n Steven hugs to you hun xx

  • Sasha Ceballos
    Sasha Ceballos 6 saat önce

    Desi I know you’ve probably tried everything but I work in the Health field... and my patients have good success with An Exam called Hysterosalpingogram .. this is an Exam in the Radiology Department!

    Checks for your Fallopian tubes to check if they are open allowing for sperm to reach the ovaries ..

    :) -XOXO
    Snap fam

  • Pelda Gümüscü
    Pelda Gümüscü 6 saat önce

    Desi, you truly are strong

  • Kristi-Anne Mc Auley
    Kristi-Anne Mc Auley 6 saat önce

    Thank you Desi. What hit home the most for me was your roller coaster of emotions. Even to the point of “I’m good I’m not ready anymore”. Thank you for letting me know I’m not alone. ❤️

  • Jennifer Waudby
    Jennifer Waudby 6 saat önce

    Girl, no one knows the pain. I hated hearing 'It's because you are thinking about it too much' I had have lost a premature baby and had 3 misscarages over 6 years. I gave up hope and was looking into adoption when I became pregnant. I now have a beautiful baby girl. My other girl friend was trying for 10 years with never falling pregnant and she has a 10 month old. No one appreciates what we have like we do.

  • Make-up Queeen
    Make-up Queeen 7 saat önce

    I prayed for you!

  • Yolanda Gutiertez
    Yolanda Gutiertez 7 saat önce

    Most heartbreaking video to watch much love for you both. Best wishes.

  • casey barrett
    casey barrett 7 saat önce

    You are so strong to get infront of a camera and express your feelings like this. Like you said everything happens for a reason and i 100% agree but i wish only but the best for you and steven the best ❤️

  • Keisha D
    Keisha D 7 saat önce

    You are so brave to share your story Desi. I admire your strength.
    Often they say “it will happen when you least expect it” 🙏🏻 hoping it will be the case for you too.
    There is also some kind of water hole/lake in Australia that is a spiritual place and symbolises fertility, maybe something you might be interested in, some people have said it has worked for them, you never know it could be interesting to try - her about Nicole Kidman trying it?
    Thinking of you and Steven and wishing you all the best in the future. 😘❤️

  • Lluvia Guerrero
    Lluvia Guerrero 8 saat önce

    This video truly helps

  • Um Sumayyah
    Um Sumayyah 8 saat önce

    Sending love and prayers your way ♡

  • jaybirdswife1
    jaybirdswife1 8 saat önce

    You sweet thing. Big Hugs and well wishes from me to you ❤️❤️❤️

  • Krista Washington
    Krista Washington 9 saat önce

    Desi!!! I love you guys sooo much!!! I'm sorry for all of the pain you guys have been experiencing...my Mom struggled for 6 years to get pregnant with me.. She said it was the longest, hardest 6 years of her life..Just know that we are all here for you and are supporting you and Steven in every way possible!! Xoxoxo

  • Rachel Armstrong
    Rachel Armstrong 10 saat önce

    so much love for you desi!

  • Monique D
    Monique D 11 saat önce

    ❤️

  • Donata Pospišil
    Donata Pospišil 12 saat önce

    Hello! First of all, I must say that you are amazing and I love your videos soooooo much. Second please try tee from lady’s mantle. It help me and so many women I know. Send you lots of love,hope and good wishes.

  • Pessie majiwa
    Pessie majiwa 12 saat önce

    Hi Desi, i don't even know you, i'm a new subscriber..but watching this video has made me feel this deep sympathy for you, i'm praying for you and i believe and i'm sure you will conceive because we are serving a living God, i pray this in Jesus name amen. Lots of hugs

  • Anitta Koivisto
    Anitta Koivisto 13 saat önce

    You are still so young and you are in good hands now. Your specialist will figure out your period and ovulation problems if you have any, so that's not the problem. Then there is multiple ways to help the pregnancy to begin and to support it. I hope you don't stress too much and hopefully you have the energy to stay positive ❤ You will be pregnant again and you will have a child and family one day ❤.

  • Lindi Eriksen
    Lindi Eriksen 14 saat önce

    Thank you for addressing fan comments in the beginning. I hope some people read this and realize they are unknowingly touching on a sensitive subject or pushing their own family dreams on their idols. Love xoxo

  • C Momtoboys
    C Momtoboys 16 saat önce

    Desi- I had the same struggles getting pregnant. After years of struggle the specialist helped us and now have 3 healthy beautiful boys! They are super spaced apart!
    keep your faith and don’t give in to all negative self talk we all do when we go through this. Much 💗

  • Rachel Millington
    Rachel Millington 16 saat önce

    My best friend has just fallen pregnant after being diagnosed with PCOS over 3 years ago and had been trying for a baby for 2 years with no luck except an early miscarriage. She wasn’t trying and it always happens when you least expect. Never give up hope ❤️

  • Marcie Ibbotson
    Marcie Ibbotson 17 saat önce

    Keep the faith honey, believe with every ounce of yourself and I promise it will happen. I am so glad you shared your heart with us and of course now you have thousands and thousands of people praying for you. Positive thoughts, always- You will be a Momma! 🙏❤️❤️🙏

  • cendy rodriguez
    cendy rodriguez 17 saat önce

    I cried like a baby watching this video because for years that was me trying and trying and i just couldnt get pregnant so i was terrified I thought i never would but you know what your right everything happens when for a reason and god knows when to give you what for so long you have wanted i did have the ovulation problem and my dr gave me the pills and i took them and took them and he had told me 6 months and when i took my last month and didnt see anything i just said i give up and decided to just forget about it it happened i was pregnant and it was the most amazing feeling in the world i love you so much and dont worry god know when the time is right